NATAL NOISES, FATAL FLAWS
Muskaan Razdan
I took my mother’s tooth, I needed bones. She pushed me
a month early, she needed joy. An understanding
to take what’s needed without asking, without needing to,
even before birth. Crouched on a couch, she crochets
veins to protect me. I become hope, before a body. Fattening her
heart with promise. A foetus learns language in the womb. Silence
meant rage. Piercing my placenta, forming cysts of suppression.
I replied with itches against sheer skin. She soothed me. Clawing herself,
creating upward trails. She said, for you I’ll pray
(Amniotic fluid reverbs her voice)
I learned,
for you I’ll prey.