ah ah ah ah staying alive

Benjamin J. Larner


& off again off cattle trained black

    mould palate knife schmeared cleft

palate soft palate snuff   

 

    flick balloon animal licks gas

chamber blow hole deep    

    throating caterwaul mocking

 

bird trilled marionette gastro 

    intestinal lover liver lathered sweat

shop squits too human

 

    esque butchery’s wanton dog’s

dinner messed help! help! whelp fisting 

    arcade claw gullet slick swan

 

neck slung for all that hot hot

    love that lives laughs

vivisects pricked spittle slick aleppo

 

    chilli hots for time of death boozed hip 

hip hoorays dolly hey dolly dolly

    hey that’s medicine ok : being fucked

Benjamin J. Larner (b.1990) is a disabled poet of Iraqi/Irish/Ashkenazi heritage. He won second place in the 2024 Ivan Juritz Prize, has been shortlisted for the 2025 Spread the Word and CRIPtic Arts Disabled Poets Prize (ongoing), and has been longlisted for the 2025 United Agents and Goldsmiths Pat Kavanagh Prize, the 2024 London Magazine Poetry Prize, the 2024 Oxford Poetry Prize, and the 2023 Dreich Classics Chapbook Prize. Awarded a scholarship to study BMus Composition at the Royal Academy of Music, he received the Academy's Arthur Hervey Scholarship Prize upon graduation. In 2023 he commenced Goldsmiths' Creative and Life Writing MA, for which he was also awarded an academic scholarship, and graduated with a distinction. Recent publications include Agenda, Goldfish, Tears in the Fence, A Thin Slice of Anxiety, and Dreich. He currently assists Poetry London, for which he also writes and reviews.